自序
獻給魯本，獻給台灣的所有善意
Kia ora（Hello）, dear Taiwan, it’s my turn now to be a mirror to reflect back at you, as to see the full beauty of your love, and how I truly felt. Taiwan was a place where men and women would
reach out and give to those in need.
Throughout my search for my son, Reuben, against all odds, I was encouraged on by acts of great love and compassion with encouraging calls of Ji-ho, ji-ho. Taiwanese people are truly unique
with their kindness and generosity.
哈囉，親愛的台灣，現在輪到我了。我願做一面鏡子，讓你看見我真正感受到的一份完全的愛。這片土地上，人們樂於伸出援手給需要的人。在尋找兒子魯本的重重困難中，我獲得許多充滿了愛與關懷的鼓勵，還有「加油、加油」的打氣。台灣人真是非常獨特，善良而慷慨。
Without such kindness, as a common man and father from a far off land, I could not have had the strength to have continued this by myself. Every time I fell, I was picked up by these acts of
great love, bringing balance back to the core and essence of my spirit. This I will never forget. Ever.
沒有這些善意，我，一個遙遠國度而來的平凡父親，不可能獨力持續。每次我倒下，都被這樣的愛所扶起，讓我的心靈得到平衡。我不會忘記，永遠不會。
I dedicate this book to the loving memory of a most wonderful son and friend, Reuben, doing what he liked to do most; exploring and being at one with nature. Ka haere moke atu a ia kit e
koraha（to he whom went into the wildness alone）.
謹以此書，獻給魯本，一個好兒子，一個好朋友，一段美好的回憶。他做了他最喜歡的事，探索大自然，並成為了其中一部分。獻給隻身於荒野的他。
And to my friends.
獻給我的朋友。
With AROHA（love）.
以我的愛
Phil Tchernegovski
費爾‧車諾高夫斯基
後言
留住人間的情分 何英傑
感謝白紫．埃．迪雅奇安娜（Paic
u'e Tiaki’ana）、石處長暨夫人、李梅麗、亞麥伊．埃．亞達烏亞拿（‘Avai ‘e Yata’uyungana）、阿不．埃．穆可納那（Abu'u
‘eM
uknana）、張琪、陳阿月、陳柏彰、曹晴輝、黃鈺民、楊宏祐、蔡慶榮、簡天賞、Larry、Regina、Zhang，還有我親愛的蕾翌、開文、寬成，沒有這些人的協助，這本書出不來。
費爾這人，其實滿像台灣人的，很台。
孩子失蹤，他受不了紐西蘭政府的溫溫吞
